Actions speak louder than words

After consoling a dear friend and family member along with receiving the brunt of someone's meanness, I made a Facebook post recently that stated the following: 

How kind you actually are to others, including people who have hurt you or those you can't stand, speaks more volumes than those bible verses & quotes you post on Facebook. Are you trying to be Godly or are you trying to be God by seeking your own revenge while consumed by your resentment? Is proving you're right really worth pushing someone toward suicide or exiling them from family?

Ephesians 4:26, Romans 12:17-21, Matthew 5:22-24, and Thumper's advice to Bambi.

FYI: This is a general statement and isn't directed towards any particular person, but if the shoe fits...

People assume that how they portray themselves on Facebook, will make themselves look like saints/victims to justify their actions...

It doesn't. 

Selfishness and pride seem to be the underlying issues here. 

Moving on...

I had a dream that in the near future, Chris actually started being in Bryson's life. 

He invited us down for his 3rd child's birth,so Bryson could meet meet younger brother and siblings. 

I actually woke up crying. 

Wouldn't it be beautiful if we could put this pettiness aside and be adults? 

Celebrate family as a whole?

celebrate life as a whole? 

Again, this was just a dream.

For thanksgiving this year, my mom's ex husband (my sister's dad) and his wife were invited over, so he could spend it with his grandkids and I couldn't help but wish the same could be said for my family in Ohio.

My papa remarried after my grandma passed and everyone avoids him like the plague. 

He invites the fam to spend holidays with his new wife's family, so they could spend it all together. 

however, my fam lies saying the kids don't want to come,so they can have a family meal separately.

It hurts me. Seeing that separation really hurts.

I think back how many times I had to readjust with each marriage/divorce of my dad's and my aunts.

That new person and family was invited for supper regardless of me meeting them prior or not.

yet, when it comes to my papa, everyone refuses to treat him with the same regard they expected for all 3...4...5...6 of their spouses/significant others.

They bring up infidelity allegations about my papa to justify their reasoning for not being around them, which is ironic considering their own proven infidelities. 

I just don't get it. 

The only time my family is whole is when someone dies. 

Then all of a sudden, we can be around each other in one room, supporting one another.

Yet, when people they are in a fuss with are alive...the same can't be said. 

My name has been dragged into the mess because I bought a hotel room.

Dad claims it's because I'm unwelcome at my papas

Papa's sad because he thinks I don't want to spend time with him

Really I just needed the wifi for class, jacuzzi, and all you can eat breakfast buffet.

I just wish people would stop this childish fighting for the younger generation's sake. 

I recall spending my birthdays and holidays surrounded by my entire Ohio family...I'm talking my great aunts/uncles and 3rd/4th/5th cousins! Everyone!

Now...my son will never have that experience because everyone has grown up and turned against one another. 

I hate that. 

I forgot where I was going with this....